Thursday, April 18, 2013

Starting the Journey

What prompted me to begin releasing this weight was hearing from doctors that I was morbidly obese. MORBIDLY! OBESE! That did not sound like kind, hard-working, sexy, beautiful, cute, adorable (hush) and all the other ways I describe myself.  For me those words registered as: I'm fat as hell, super fat, extremely fat.  It's like a "yo mama so fat that she's going to die" joke gone wrong.  That's not funny. I'm going to be laying in a bed having people bring me cakes, McDonald's, and sodas. I'm not going to be able to wash myself.  I'll have to live in my bedroom because I can't squeeze through the door. I'm the mother in Who's Eating Gilbert Grape!  

I already can't walk.

My health is at danger and all I have to do is eat and exercise to get better.  That's it, but it's so hard.  If it was easy I wouldn't be morbidly obese now.  I find that I am having to dig deeper to break habits.  Chilling and eating up any and everything is fun and it is a hard habit to break.  Some people can go cold turkey on bad foods and start eating clean from the start.  I'm not that person.  Moderation is key until I am able to completely eliminate a food or drink out of my life.  I also think that allowing myself to eat certain items from time to time keeps me from gorging on it later.  
Homemade smoothie w/protein helps cravings! 

Starving and feeling hungry is something I cannot do.  If I'm hungry I'm going to eat.  So, I eat before I'm starving.  I eat carbs and proteins together since I have PCOS and my body loves to quickly turn carbs into fat. The protein slows down the metabolism of the sugar. Basically, I'm eating more but I've become better at eating by choosing cleaner foods and using the carb + protein combo. That's pretty much it and drinking more water. Make a healthier choice with each meal. 


CaribSun said...

Hang in there my friend. It is tough, but you can do it. Try drinking a glass of water before eating. You will quite likely eat a little less when you are filled with water.

Josie said...

Thank you for your honest--and hilarious--reflections on life and obesity. I have the same struggles myself, so your health and wellnes journey will inspire me mightily. Keep blogging about your progress, please!